could not be better

this picture will blow you focking away http://www.imageshadow.com/view.php?image=Ungaro_fsh_F8_063302106_1.jpg




i have the perfect life

everything everybody would ever want


the fact that i complain and

think things are hard is disturbing and disgusting

i hate that worse

i'm quite ashamed


i really appreciate my life which i was wholly unable to do 2 months ago, appreciate.

really, though. i have never known anybody who had a better life than me.
then i added self-confidence and social comfort and now, what's wrong?
nothing.
if i tell myself guilt isn't worth it and i only need d's to get this degree i won't have this pent up guilt on my quasimodo neck all the time [that's all school ever gave me].

i think people aren't capable of feeling grateful.


most things i ponder go back to conditioning. the women's rights thing, etc.
we grow up ONLY learning to be unhappy, not accept, not be proud enough, despise our 'flaws.' um hi what's a flaw? how is something 'wrong'? that's such bullshit.
people being serious and not loving the world and their life
has made me this way
it's so sickening

we have the potential to be 100% happy and help everything be positive and new and special in the world but instead WHAT we will ourselves to have bad feelings and opinions and follow stressors rather than ignoring them!!!!!!!!!!!


we need to fucking stop this shit has got to END. NOW.


i'm serious!!! it will be fucking abusive to raise children among these people who feel and perpetuate these ways of thinking!!!!